2006
Nov 21
房东的印尼佣人,哭了。在我去厨房喝水时,听到她的轻轻的哭泣。
原来,她在看着房东的相簿。相中,有顽皮的小弟,爸爸,妈妈和婆婆。思乡了吧。
我识趣,静悄悄回房,仿如我不曾出来一样。
“难道你不想家吗?”我自问。
对呀,已经不怎么想。从99年离家升学至今,越走越远。生活的忙碌,7年独自生活,对家人的关心,是络印在心底的一点沉重,一点痛。
有时惊觉,过年回乡时已没有昔日那股激动与悸动。不禁莞尔,哪里是我熟悉的家…
记得那年在大学念书的守岁,我坐在校园的长椅上,凝望着那昨天曾有两百盏灯的宿舍,今天剩下两盏灯遥遥地通过空气问好…
不晓得,灯的主人是忘了熄灯,还是留下来陪我的。良久,头发湿了,有点冷。我向着漆黑紧锁的窗门,说了声“新年快乐”新年就这样到了。
年复一年地兴奋地回家,不舍地回来。逐渐也麻木了。逐渐地越走越远。
寻找,家的感觉。
所以越走越远。
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Looks like we are in the same boat. You just described exactly the same feeling I have. I am catching the plane from Aus tonight but will only arrive pg around 2 Jan.
6 years. It has been 6 years I have been living by myself. Toughest time would be I was studying and working all by myself in Brisbane. But that’s ok. No pain no gain.
May be we are still finding a place we ourself call home.
Good luck buddy.
dear jason, glad to hear from you. Do catch up when you’re “nearby” k?